The waiting……😞

For me this is the most difficult stage., whether that’s because it’s what I’m experiencing right now and I’ve forgotten how the other stages were or because it’s the last leg of the journey…

It’s like hope was dangled in front of us in May but the longer we wait the more worry I experience so with every passing week the positivity and hope slips further away.. it’s called self preservation. Having that partial non-identifying information on a child, a child that we will parent if all goes to plan, knowing they are in an orphanage needing a family, and getting older all the time… Its so difficult!.. I wasn’t prepared for this,Β  I knew the waiting would be excruciatingly difficult but really hadn’t thought we’d still be waiting now… almost 5 months now… so naive I was! ☹And stupidly hopeful…

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